Rough Time

I've been having so many issues this term. Family issues, life issues, financial issues, you name it. I am so on my last straw. Right now I'm trying to figure out how I can get my life together. I have a feeling that me & my fiance are not going to be a couple anymore. There has been so much going on & I think he's going back to his old ways which I hope I am able to stay strong through because it's really effecting my life. I feel like my life is going down hill so fast & I was not prepared for this. He is all I have. The only person I can depend on. And to think that he has betrayed me has been very hard on me. I'm not on my regular diet anymore. It's hard for me to eat. And I have noticed myself becomeing dull & feel like that I don't want to do anything. But as I noticed when I talk about my problem, I get other people's opinions on how I can help myself in the situation. That makes it easier for me. But through all this, I have to hide my struggles from my boys. My 3 year old saw me cry & he just held me & hugged me. I don't want him to see me like that anymore. I want to be strong for my boys. I appreciate all the comments on my blog. I don't mind if I don't get a respond back from my blogs because I know I sometimes don't have time or make time to read the other blogs. So I understand everyone has their lives and they just might not have time to respond. So the lack of blog comments don't bother me. I'm just glad that I get this opportunity to be able to comfortably talk about my feelings and not be judged. I will definitely use the blog after class ends. This has been a stress releiver for me this week. And I hope that we all stay connected.